Give Up Or Fight For It???

Why are u treating me like this?? What did i do to u until u make this decision?? Why u want give me 19 days of happy and the rest u give me a sad days?? Why Why Why?? Inside my mind got lots of question mark!!! Seriously, can i remove and forget all these question mark?? I want to forget u, but i cant!!!! I seriously dam love u!!!! I miss the moment that u feed me, we hold hand together to watch movie, u talked lots of sweet things to me, and u huged me. And u are the first who i fall in love deeply until i cant stand up!!!! U are the first person who kissed me, and hold my hand!!!! Remember u say u will accompany me for the rest of 70 years?? Why u will become like this?? U r lying to me!!! If u cannot give me a promise of taking care of me, pls dun say i love u to me!!! Pls!!!! I hate it!!! Because of u, i tried my best to go out with u without letting my parents know. I tried not to go eat expensive food, try not to shopping. Because i noe u having a tight budget. I din even mind when go out with u eat mamak. I felt happy when i go out with u, even i dun eat, i also feel very happy. The main reason that u choose to break up is because we not suit each other?? Rubbish, this is a excuse, not a reason. Everyone is calling me to give up u, but i am trying u to think many reason of u treating me like this. I dun want u to become a bad guy in my friend's heart. I had think different kind of reason to protect u!!! I am so dam protect u until dun let my fren hurt u!!! Do u noe that?? U dunno. I seriously hope that u will give me a reason. A reason or no more feeling, or u still love me is doesn't matter anymore. I just want a reason, the reason is to let me forget about u, give up u or fight for u!!!! I really dunno what can i do now.... I am just waiting and waiting like a dead person. Everyone say i am a happy and cheerful girl!!!! Because of u, all my smile, my cheerful look is gone!!! Do u noe that u seriously hurt me deeply?? If u want me to wait to long, then i will choose to forget!!! I hate to wait ppl!!! If u dun love me anymore, why u dun dare come to find me and talk with me and also treat me as a friend?? I noe i will never treat u as a friend, but still i will force myself. Pls, tell me wat can i do??