Heartbroken.

I think everyone that are single want a bf or gf so badly. For me, before i haven couple, i think that is very good to have a bf to taking good care of u, talk sweet sweet to u, do different things just to let u feel happy and in love, shopping together, share happiness and sadness together, and lastly when u need help, the first person that u will call is ur bf, and he sure will help u. But now for me, i dun think is good to have a bf that cant even help u at all. When i face problem, i have to solve by myself. He just ask me dun walk to work, ask me ask ppl fetch. When i say ok, i try to ask ppl fetch. Then he say okla, i go wash car first. WTF!!!! His car is more important than me. I really speechless. And some more he never think that if later i really cannot get any transport, how i go. I am just so disappointed to him. I got nothing much else to say. I just feel so sad and disappointed that no one help me when i really need help nobody help me at all. I just dun understand why ppl need help, i will try my very very best to help them, when i need help, NOBODY can help me at all. Sometimes, i keep ask myself izzit good to help ppl in this way. I din even ask for any return, but pls at least when i need help, somebody will help me. When they say no transport, i will be the one fetch them, when they dun have money, i will borrow them, whenever they ask for my help, i will confirm help them eventhough i am very suffer. SPEECHLESS. I think better not to be too kind or too good, is time to keep a distance, the person i believe the most sholud be my families ad myself only. Sometimes i really prefer single, at least dun need to be so suffer and think so much. Wat i want to do just do, no need tell this and that.

JVKS Love MOM FOREVER!!!!!

Mi, happy mother day!!!! Mi, I am that kind of people that wont say i love u everyday, i am that kind of people like to keep the love in my heart. But that doesn't mean i dun love u. Hehe, Mi, thanks for bring me come to this world. Thanks for always so care about us!!!!! I got a greatest gift from the god, that is U, daddy, ahma and teacher tan!!!! Hehe, last friday, there was a waiter accidentally poured champagne on my head. My mom was so angry and kept help me wiped my body using a wet cloth. Today i saw ur sweetest smile, hehe!!!!! I love that smile. Seriously. Hope that u will like the watch that i bought for u. Its so freaking expensive, but it so worth it, as long as u are happy. Mi, i am here to tell u that we will take care u and papa forever. We will NOT throw u and papa one side. We promise we will give u all the best life. We will earn money to let u and papa go travel the world!!!! JVKS LOVE U FOREVER!!!!!! Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Happy Birthday To My Grandma!!!!

Last friday was my beloved grandma's. As usual, we went to restaurant and celebrate. I would like to say something here to my grandma. Grandma, you are the one that i love the most!!!!! I really mean it. Thanks for giving me 19 years of happy. Thanks for always wake me up in the midnight. Thanks for always ask me go eat dinner. Thanks for helping me blow my hair. Thanks for EVERYTHING!!!!!! All those little things will keep in my heart forever!!!! U did alot of things to me, until i cant write one by one. Haha. Anyway, i want u to healthy forever, i will want myself suffer rather than u suffer. I will feel really warm and happy because i can always look at ur cheerful face. A day i will never remember is that day at 1 utama, i cant find u at all. U wouldn't noe how important you are to me. Is Important than anything. When i saw u from far away, i run to u and hug u and i cried. In that moment, i noe that i cannot lost u. I really want to say I LOVE U FOREVER AH MA!!!!!!

To my lao za bo & xiao za bo

Hehe, the moment u guys talk with, convince me at rock cafe will forever stay in my mind!!!!! Seriously. I didn't know u guys will down and angry because i s!!!! Sorry for that.. Honestly i din 'fu yan' u all when u guys talk with me. In that moment, i was dam shock that u guys said that to me!!!! I just really dunno i should give u wat reaction, i was really get touched by u two, my lao za bo and xiao za bo!!! This is the first time i will never my word to 'ding' u guys.You guys seriously are very important in my heart. Even though we just meet each other few months ago, but time is not the matters. The most important is we have the same type of characteristic. I will feel very comfortable when i am with u guys, because u guys are so real, i will never afraid u guys will do something bad to me, i can talk wat i want. I will never hide myself in front of u guys. Thanks for coming in to my life. Because of u two, i PROMISE i wont s anymore and r anymore!!!!! I will NEVER EVER TOUCH these 2 things in my life anymore. Of course i noe just say is useless, no worries, i will show u guys using my action!!!!:) I am sure u guys will support me!!! Haha. Another thing is I will very suffer if i go to intern. Now i can always see u guys, talk with u guys, and play with u guys!!! But when i go for intern, i will dun have chance too talk, play and see u guys. When i come back from intern, u guys will go for intern. Omg, almost 10 months leh!!!! How suffer is this!!!! I really hope that when we intern comeback, we still will like now, sampat together!!! Seriously, i really dun want we become hi bye fren when we come back form intern!!!!! PROMISE ME!!!!! At last, we must be JI MUI forever, even though when we graduate, we also must keep in touch with each other. We must always hang out together gether to improve our 'gan qing'!!!! Love u guys super duper alot!!!! JI MUI forever!!!! My mom always say that college very hard to find a true heart fren, but i found it!!!!! I will be very proud to say u guys to my families member, my teacher and my fren!!!! If the god let me choose want money or want u two, i will choose u this two ji muis. Money is not as important as u guys to me. I can earn money, but i cant find ji mui like u all at now. My BEST JI MUIS!!!! I am a person will never say out these kind of thing, so i choose to type it out....Smile....

Heart die

My heart is dam pain!!!! U dunnoe at all!!!!! I wish that i will never meet u in my life anymore, because when i meet u, i will never ever give up u. All i want is to forget u, i am very tired of waiting u. In this half month, u changed. All my frens asked me to forget u,because they say i sure will deserve a better one. But can i give up u?? I really dunno need to takes how long to forget u. But I am sure i wont want u back anymore, in chinese, there is a phrase which is 'hao ma bu chi hui tou cao'. I choose to give up, thats mean i wont want u anymore. I will put our little memories in my heart and lock it forever. I wont forget our good memories, but i will never ever let myself think anymore. Once i think, my tears will drop easily, my hear is dam pain. When i heard my fren complain about u, and i asked him to scold u, but at that moment, my heart is really pain. Why want to give me 19 days of happiness. If can let me choose again, i will choose want the 19 days rather never meet u before. All i can say i am very love u, i fall deep deep in love with u. I am very disappointed to wat u had done to me. My heart died because of u, my cheerful and happy face are gone because of u. U will never noe how much u hurt me.......

Give Up Or Fight For It???

Why are u treating me like this?? What did i do to u until u make this decision?? Why u want give me 19 days of happy and the rest u give me a sad days?? Why Why Why?? Inside my mind got lots of question mark!!! Seriously, can i remove and forget all these question mark?? I want to forget u, but i cant!!!! I seriously dam love u!!!! I miss the moment that u feed me, we hold hand together to watch movie, u talked lots of sweet things to me, and u huged me. And u are the first who i fall in love deeply until i cant stand up!!!! U are the first person who kissed me, and hold my hand!!!! Remember u say u will accompany me for the rest of 70 years?? Why u will become like this?? U r lying to me!!! If u cannot give me a promise of taking care of me, pls dun say i love u to me!!! Pls!!!! I hate it!!! Because of u, i tried my best to go out with u without letting my parents know. I tried not to go eat expensive food, try not to shopping. Because i noe u having a tight budget. I din even mind when go out with u eat mamak. I felt happy when i go out with u, even i dun eat, i also feel very happy. The main reason that u choose to break up is because we not suit each other?? Rubbish, this is a excuse, not a reason. Everyone is calling me to give up u, but i am trying u to think many reason of u treating me like this. I dun want u to become a bad guy in my friend's heart. I had think different kind of reason to protect u!!! I am so dam protect u until dun let my fren hurt u!!! Do u noe that?? U dunno. I seriously hope that u will give me a reason. A reason or no more feeling, or u still love me is doesn't matter anymore. I just want a reason, the reason is to let me forget about u, give up u or fight for u!!!! I really dunno what can i do now.... I am just waiting and waiting like a dead person. Everyone say i am a happy and cheerful girl!!!! Because of u, all my smile, my cheerful look is gone!!! Do u noe that u seriously hurt me deeply?? If u want me to wait to long, then i will choose to forget!!! I hate to wait ppl!!! If u dun love me anymore, why u dun dare come to find me and talk with me and also treat me as a friend?? I noe i will never treat u as a friend, but still i will force myself. Pls, tell me wat can i do??