2013 pls be good to me!!!! :D

2012年就要过去了，这一年，我有许许多多开心的回忆，伤心的回忆。这一年我做了许多不该做的事情，爱上了一个我更本就不应该爱的人。为了他，我做了许许多多傻事，我不停的付出，没有想过任何回报。在今年里，我为了他留了不少眼泪，我的心情总是会被他影响。只可以怪自己犯贱，放不下他。转瞬间，已经一年了，很庆幸自己到最后都醒来了，我已经彻彻底底的醒了，我也告诉自己不会再让历史重演。如果有如果这首歌对我在也没有任何意义了。谢谢你给了我一个那么美好的回忆，我永远都不会忘记我们一起去看戏，一起温习功课，帮你庆祝21岁的生日，一起在车上聊到很开心，有说有笑，我喂你吃食物的那一刻，你听我说心事的那一种可爱的眼神，我们一起去一个很特别的餐厅吃晚餐还有许许多多的时刻我们一起渡过。那一些点点滴滴的回忆永远都会记得在我的心里。你灿烂的笑容永永远远都会记得在我的心里。虽然我们不能在一起，但是谢谢你给了我那么棒的回忆。现在唯有帮我们美丽的回忆划上一个句号。在此我真心的祝福你会找到适合你的另一半，过着一个幸福快乐的生活。我也是时候迈向我的新生活，我会勇敢追求自己的幸福和未来。对不起因为我，你也流了不少的眼泪。2013年，请你对我好一点，让我找到自己的真爱，他是一个会包容的，爱我，疼我的人。我希望我能有一个不会断的恋情，我和他可以白头偕老。我真的不想再受到任何的伤害了。

Just let go

I really dunno what u want. U can always control my emotions so easy. I hate and also love u. Is time for me to forget u. Fren for us is better than everything.....

Heartbroken.

I think everyone that are single want a bf or gf so badly. For me, before i haven couple, i think that is very good to have a bf to taking good care of u, talk sweet sweet to u, do different things just to let u feel happy and in love, shopping together, share happiness and sadness together, and lastly when u need help, the first person that u will call is ur bf, and he sure will help u. But now for me, i dun think is good to have a bf that cant even help u at all. When i face problem, i have to solve by myself. He just ask me dun walk to work, ask me ask ppl fetch. When i say ok, i try to ask ppl fetch. Then he say okla, i go wash car first. WTF!!!! His car is more important than me. I really speechless. And some more he never think that if later i really cannot get any transport, how i go. I am just so disappointed to him. I got nothing much else to say. I just feel so sad and disappointed that no one help me when i really need help nobody help me at all. I just dun understand why ppl need help, i will try my very very best to help them, when i need help, NOBODY can help me at all. Sometimes, i keep ask myself izzit good to help ppl in this way. I din even ask for any return, but pls at least when i need help, somebody will help me. When they say no transport, i will be the one fetch them, when they dun have money, i will borrow them, whenever they ask for my help, i will confirm help them eventhough i am very suffer. SPEECHLESS. I think better not to be too kind or too good, is time to keep a distance, the person i believe the most sholud be my families ad myself only. Sometimes i really prefer single, at least dun need to be so suffer and think so much. Wat i want to do just do, no need tell this and that.

JVKS Love MOM FOREVER!!!!!

Mi, happy mother day!!!! Mi, I am that kind of people that wont say i love u everyday, i am that kind of people like to keep the love in my heart. But that doesn't mean i dun love u. Hehe, Mi, thanks for bring me come to this world. Thanks for always so care about us!!!!! I got a greatest gift from the god, that is U, daddy, ahma and teacher tan!!!! Hehe, last friday, there was a waiter accidentally poured champagne on my head. My mom was so angry and kept help me wiped my body using a wet cloth. Today i saw ur sweetest smile, hehe!!!!! I love that smile. Seriously. Hope that u will like the watch that i bought for u. Its so freaking expensive, but it so worth it, as long as u are happy. Mi, i am here to tell u that we will take care u and papa forever. We will NOT throw u and papa one side. We promise we will give u all the best life. We will earn money to let u and papa go travel the world!!!! JVKS LOVE U FOREVER!!!!!! Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Happy Birthday To My Grandma!!!!

Last friday was my beloved grandma's. As usual, we went to restaurant and celebrate. I would like to say something here to my grandma. Grandma, you are the one that i love the most!!!!! I really mean it. Thanks for giving me 19 years of happy. Thanks for always wake me up in the midnight. Thanks for always ask me go eat dinner. Thanks for helping me blow my hair. Thanks for EVERYTHING!!!!!! All those little things will keep in my heart forever!!!! U did alot of things to me, until i cant write one by one. Haha. Anyway, i want u to healthy forever, i will want myself suffer rather than u suffer. I will feel really warm and happy because i can always look at ur cheerful face. A day i will never remember is that day at 1 utama, i cant find u at all. U wouldn't noe how important you are to me. Is Important than anything. When i saw u from far away, i run to u and hug u and i cried. In that moment, i noe that i cannot lost u. I really want to say I LOVE U FOREVER AH MA!!!!!!

To my lao za bo & xiao za bo

Hehe, the moment u guys talk with, convince me at rock cafe will forever stay in my mind!!!!! Seriously. I didn't know u guys will down and angry because i s!!!! Sorry for that.. Honestly i din 'fu yan' u all when u guys talk with me. In that moment, i was dam shock that u guys said that to me!!!! I just really dunno i should give u wat reaction, i was really get touched by u two, my lao za bo and xiao za bo!!! This is the first time i will never my word to 'ding' u guys.You guys seriously are very important in my heart. Even though we just meet each other few months ago, but time is not the matters. The most important is we have the same type of characteristic. I will feel very comfortable when i am with u guys, because u guys are so real, i will never afraid u guys will do something bad to me, i can talk wat i want. I will never hide myself in front of u guys. Thanks for coming in to my life. Because of u two, i PROMISE i wont s anymore and r anymore!!!!! I will NEVER EVER TOUCH these 2 things in my life anymore. Of course i noe just say is useless, no worries, i will show u guys using my action!!!!:) I am sure u guys will support me!!! Haha. Another thing is I will very suffer if i go to intern. Now i can always see u guys, talk with u guys, and play with u guys!!! But when i go for intern, i will dun have chance too talk, play and see u guys. When i come back from intern, u guys will go for intern. Omg, almost 10 months leh!!!! How suffer is this!!!! I really hope that when we intern comeback, we still will like now, sampat together!!! Seriously, i really dun want we become hi bye fren when we come back form intern!!!!! PROMISE ME!!!!! At last, we must be JI MUI forever, even though when we graduate, we also must keep in touch with each other. We must always hang out together gether to improve our 'gan qing'!!!! Love u guys super duper alot!!!! JI MUI forever!!!! My mom always say that college very hard to find a true heart fren, but i found it!!!!! I will be very proud to say u guys to my families member, my teacher and my fren!!!! If the god let me choose want money or want u two, i will choose u this two ji muis. Money is not as important as u guys to me. I can earn money, but i cant find ji mui like u all at now. My BEST JI MUIS!!!! I am a person will never say out these kind of thing, so i choose to type it out....Smile....

Heart die

My heart is dam pain!!!! U dunnoe at all!!!!! I wish that i will never meet u in my life anymore, because when i meet u, i will never ever give up u. All i want is to forget u, i am very tired of waiting u. In this half month, u changed. All my frens asked me to forget u,because they say i sure will deserve a better one. But can i give up u?? I really dunno need to takes how long to forget u. But I am sure i wont want u back anymore, in chinese, there is a phrase which is 'hao ma bu chi hui tou cao'. I choose to give up, thats mean i wont want u anymore. I will put our little memories in my heart and lock it forever. I wont forget our good memories, but i will never ever let myself think anymore. Once i think, my tears will drop easily, my hear is dam pain. When i heard my fren complain about u, and i asked him to scold u, but at that moment, my heart is really pain. Why want to give me 19 days of happiness. If can let me choose again, i will choose want the 19 days rather never meet u before. All i can say i am very love u, i fall deep deep in love with u. I am very disappointed to wat u had done to me. My heart died because of u, my cheerful and happy face are gone because of u. U will never noe how much u hurt me.......

Give Up Or Fight For It???

Why are u treating me like this?? What did i do to u until u make this decision?? Why u want give me 19 days of happy and the rest u give me a sad days?? Why Why Why?? Inside my mind got lots of question mark!!! Seriously, can i remove and forget all these question mark?? I want to forget u, but i cant!!!! I seriously dam love u!!!! I miss the moment that u feed me, we hold hand together to watch movie, u talked lots of sweet things to me, and u huged me. And u are the first who i fall in love deeply until i cant stand up!!!! U are the first person who kissed me, and hold my hand!!!! Remember u say u will accompany me for the rest of 70 years?? Why u will become like this?? U r lying to me!!! If u cannot give me a promise of taking care of me, pls dun say i love u to me!!! Pls!!!! I hate it!!! Because of u, i tried my best to go out with u without letting my parents know. I tried not to go eat expensive food, try not to shopping. Because i noe u having a tight budget. I din even mind when go out with u eat mamak. I felt happy when i go out with u, even i dun eat, i also feel very happy. The main reason that u choose to break up is because we not suit each other?? Rubbish, this is a excuse, not a reason. Everyone is calling me to give up u, but i am trying u to think many reason of u treating me like this. I dun want u to become a bad guy in my friend's heart. I had think different kind of reason to protect u!!! I am so dam protect u until dun let my fren hurt u!!! Do u noe that?? U dunno. I seriously hope that u will give me a reason. A reason or no more feeling, or u still love me is doesn't matter anymore. I just want a reason, the reason is to let me forget about u, give up u or fight for u!!!! I really dunno what can i do now.... I am just waiting and waiting like a dead person. Everyone say i am a happy and cheerful girl!!!! Because of u, all my smile, my cheerful look is gone!!! Do u noe that u seriously hurt me deeply?? If u want me to wait to long, then i will choose to forget!!! I hate to wait ppl!!! If u dun love me anymore, why u dun dare come to find me and talk with me and also treat me as a friend?? I noe i will never treat u as a friend, but still i will force myself. Pls, tell me wat can i do??

My 2010 is going to end soon!!!!

Hey, u u u!!!! I had promised u before that I want to write an essay to let u feel touch. I don't noe it will make u feel touch anot, but these are my 'zhen xin hua'!!!! These year i had lots of memorable and unforgettable memories with lots of ppls, ESPECIALLY you. These year, i met lots of frens, 38B & Weng Honn. These are enough for me. And I never think before we can go gym together, sauna together, and lots of our 'di yi chi'. Hehe. And I love the surprised party that u had prepared for me!!!! Like I say, until I die that day, I also won't forget u!!!! I also wont forget u and ur families, they are just super duper nice to me!!! I love to be with u guys!!!! Make me feel very comfortable!!!! Another is 38B, at first, i felt super duper boring when go out with them, because every time talk about rainie. I also dunno her, but now i had changed. I will go to choose rainie song when i got to sing k!!!! That' so impossible. This is all influenced by u!!!! Do u feel proud??Ehehe. Another thing is Weng Honn, I never think that we can celebrate christmas, watch movie and do lots of things together. That time i was fall in love with him, but he never like me at all. And until the moment i want to forget him, then he star to ask me go eat, watch movie and lots of things!!!!! I always hope that I can find a bf that i love him and he love me. I really hope that I can find this kind of boy and i also hope u and ur sister can find. I hope time can move slowly, because when i go work that time will take around 5 months. And i cant go gym often with u anymore, somemore u got big test. Then finish test, i will start my college life. And u will go singapore. I will feel freaking hurt and sad, because my best fren come sis will leave to other place. I seriously cannot take it!!! I will miss u like crazy. Lastly I hope that our frenship will last until the day i die. I really dun want we just good at this moment only. U are the best fren that i ever noe!!!! I will give up everything but i will not forget u and also give up u!!!And i want add one more thing is this year i can see KATE!!!! That was just so great!!! Thank for accompany me, appreciate it!!!! I will getting her signature soon!!!! Wakakakaka!!! Excited. I realized me and u have same personality, too 'hao xin'!!!! Is a good thing actually, keep it ya!!!! Thanks for so care and worried about me!!!! I will protect myself de!!!! Hehe. I am soooooooo luckilyto have u!!!! Thank You So Much Sis!!!! Love ya!!!!!

Special To Soon Len

Hey hey hey, a very super duper big thank you to u!!!!! I seriously love the surprise that you gave me!!!! I am sure that i had the best surprise party in this 2010 year!!!! Life was being so great. Especially when u asked teacher to come and celebrate with me. Tell u honestly, that time i was so freaking happy and wanted to cry. I felt very touch. This was a a very successful surprise.

Another big thank you for ur hand made birthday present!!!! Its was the best present!!!! Its was so creative and nice. I super duper love it. thank u for always hang out with me!!! U are a kind person, honesty, it is really hard to find this kind of fren and also sis!!!!!!!

The third thank you for treating me and teacher tan for the meal, this is just so super awesome, i was very full that time, but still enjoyed to the max!!! what a memorable day.

The forth thank you to all ur family members, which is ur dad, mom, soon hwa and u for the ipod shuffle. I really like to be with u and ur family. They are just so nice and friendly. I will remember u guys until the day i die!!!!

Lastly thank you for all the things u had done!!! U are just so AWESOME!!! Love u!!! U help me make my dream comes true!!! Thank you so much for the book mark, star star and everthing

tat u had done for me. 'XIN KU NI LE'!!!!

SpecialThank You To Dai Kar Jie & Sook Sook!!!

Hey, lovely dai kar jie and sook sook, thanks you very much for giving me a surprise party!!!! Sook sook, I am so happy that u go all the way to 1 utama just buy the sticky for my present, this make me feel really touch!!! Thank you dai kai jie for the Watch, cakes, everything that you gave me on yesterday. Actually i do not noe you guys will help me celebrate my birthday!!!! Anyway thank you so much to u guys!!!! U all give me a wonderful and memorable day!!!! Love U TWO!!!!! I love all the present!!!!

Nervous!!!!

Today was my first time drive the car after getting the license. Haha, of course I am afraid and nervous, and my mom keep asked to changed the 'D' to 'N' when stop at the trafil light area. My brother kept ask me to step the pedal more. My dad kept helped me turn the steering. My little sister will claped the hand after i reached a place, and this give me encourage to me. My little brother say nothing, and my grandma kept say me 'pandai'.Haha, will always remember the day -23/04/10. The day that all my familes members can share the first time driving moment with me. Gtg, have to study now, having study skill exam tomorrow. Bye.

Driving License.

Just now I called my mom and remind her to help me get my driving license!!!! And my mom said help me take my driving license!!! yes yes yes, i can drive ad!!!!Haha!!!!! Now when i think back that time i was having driving test, and i became so nervous and worried about it. And now its overed. Yes Yes Yes!!!! CAnt wait for my 6H's reunion and 5 Raya's Reunion!!!! I miss them so badly!!!! My Heng Dai & My Ji Mui!!!! I miss Teacher Tan!!!!!!

My College Life.

Well, my college life ad started!!!!! Well, its fun, interesting, but very tired!!!! Alots of assignments!!!! Erm i taking, Diploma In Events Management, Not taking performance and Media anymore. The reason?? Is because my parents dun allowed me to take that course, so i also dun want to argue with them. No choice to arguee with them, well, events management quite fun, i think i have chose the right course, i enjoy alot, i knew alot of new frens come from another country and also come from local. Let's talk about my fren, all the fren that i knew have different characteristic, nice and funny. I do enjoyed everytime we gossiping inthe class and chitchat with the lecturers. Its really a happy life!!!! A sad thing is i miss my gang alot, i miss them!!!! I miss all the moment that we play together, chit chat and shopping together. 5 Raya' ppls, i miss u all so freaking much!!! I am sure u all also miss the 'sampat' liying rite??? haha!!!!

I passed!!!!!

Yes yes yes, i passed my driving test!!!! I am so freaking happy!!!! Today was my 2nd time driving test, lol, first time, i failed my parking. Today i was so freaking nervous and afraid, because i really don want to failed again, i don want let my parents and frens disappointed!!!! So, first i wanted to 'bau', but my brother don allowed me, then i tried my self, and it's worked!!!! I passed!!!! yea.Today i cried because too happy!!!! The tear of happiness and joyful!!!!! I will never forget this day!!!!! Thanks to all my frens and family members, because of u all, i become more powerful!!!! Thanks, I LOVE ALL OF U!!!!!

SPM Result's Day!!!!!

Well, today is a very memorable day for me and my family members!!!! Haha!!! Today went school and collect my spm result. At first i tot i get a very bad result, but when i looked through to the paper, i feel so happy and shocked!!!! Because i got a a very satisfied result!!! I can say i really try my best,so no regrets anymore!!! Wheee, parents, grandma,sister and brother were so happy, i love them forever!!!!! Haha, i want to say a big thank you to pn ong, pn chok, & pn chan!!!!! Thank you!!!! And the last one is thank you teacher tan for encourage me!!!!! I love teacher tan!!!! And all my buddies get a very good result too!!!!! Today really is my happy day!!!! Cant sleep tonight!!! Hahahahaha!!! My SPM & highschool life is over, now i am going for college life!!! Hahahahahaha!!! But i promise,i wont forget all my teachers and frens. You guys will always in my heart!!!!!

Club Med!!!! Woohooo!!!!!

Hahahaha, i miss club med so much, i miss the GO's, the food,the drink, and the environment!!!!! Its soooo freaking enjoy!!!! Well, i miss my sis-Soey, & Mei soooo much. I really had a enjoyable trip!!!! Soey & Mei, love u!!!!!

Awwwww :)

Oh, i drove yesterday, hahaha, the feeling was extremely good!!!! I love it. This was the first time i drive. Now i am the member of celebrity!!!! Well, my bro also are the member of celebrity!!!! Good for u, bro!!! Haha. I must get my license before someone's birthday!!! Cant wait anymore!!!!

Undang!!!!

Yes, i passed my undang test!!!! Haha, i was so shocked when i noticed i got 48/50!!!!

I-Phone 3GS^^

Omg, i really love my new phone so much!!! Haha, I wanted this phone so badly, and now i got it from parents. Its a miracle for me!!! Thanks for my parents who getting me this phone and getting me a nice number. I will very take good care of my phone de!!! No worries.