Heart die

My heart is dam pain!!!! U dunnoe at all!!!!! I wish that i will never meet u in my life anymore, because when i meet u, i will never ever give up u. All i want is to forget u, i am very tired of waiting u. In this half month, u changed. All my frens asked me to forget u,because they say i sure will deserve a better one. But can i give up u?? I really dunno need to takes how long to forget u. But I am sure i wont want u back anymore, in chinese, there is a phrase which is 'hao ma bu chi hui tou cao'. I choose to give up, thats mean i wont want u anymore. I will put our little memories in my heart and lock it forever. I wont forget our good memories, but i will never ever let myself think anymore. Once i think, my tears will drop easily, my hear is dam pain. When i heard my fren complain about u, and i asked him to scold u, but at that moment, my heart is really pain. Why want to give me 19 days of happiness. If can let me choose again, i will choose want the 19 days rather never meet u before. All i can say i am very love u, i fall deep deep in love with u. I am very disappointed to wat u had done to me. My heart died because of u, my cheerful and happy face are gone because of u. U will never noe how much u hurt me.......

Give Up Or Fight For It???

Why are u treating me like this?? What did i do to u until u make this decision?? Why u want give me 19 days of happy and the rest u give me a sad days?? Why Why Why?? Inside my mind got lots of question mark!!! Seriously, can i remove and forget all these question mark?? I want to forget u, but i cant!!!! I seriously dam love u!!!! I miss the moment that u feed me, we hold hand together to watch movie, u talked lots of sweet things to me, and u huged me. And u are the first who i fall in love deeply until i cant stand up!!!! U are the first person who kissed me, and hold my hand!!!! Remember u say u will accompany me for the rest of 70 years?? Why u will become like this?? U r lying to me!!! If u cannot give me a promise of taking care of me, pls dun say i love u to me!!! Pls!!!! I hate it!!! Because of u, i tried my best to go out with u without letting my parents know. I tried not to go eat expensive food, try not to shopping. Because i noe u having a tight budget. I din even mind when go out with u eat mamak. I felt happy when i go out with u, even i dun eat, i also feel very happy. The main reason that u choose to break up is because we not suit each other?? Rubbish, this is a excuse, not a reason. Everyone is calling me to give up u, but i am trying u to think many reason of u treating me like this. I dun want u to become a bad guy in my friend's heart. I had think different kind of reason to protect u!!! I am so dam protect u until dun let my fren hurt u!!! Do u noe that?? U dunno. I seriously hope that u will give me a reason. A reason or no more feeling, or u still love me is doesn't matter anymore. I just want a reason, the reason is to let me forget about u, give up u or fight for u!!!! I really dunno what can i do now.... I am just waiting and waiting like a dead person. Everyone say i am a happy and cheerful girl!!!! Because of u, all my smile, my cheerful look is gone!!! Do u noe that u seriously hurt me deeply?? If u want me to wait to long, then i will choose to forget!!! I hate to wait ppl!!! If u dun love me anymore, why u dun dare come to find me and talk with me and also treat me as a friend?? I noe i will never treat u as a friend, but still i will force myself. Pls, tell me wat can i do??

My 2010 is going to end soon!!!!

Hey, u u u!!!! I had promised u before that I want to write an essay to let u feel touch. I don't noe it will make u feel touch anot, but these are my 'zhen xin hua'!!!! These year i had lots of memorable and unforgettable memories with lots of ppls, ESPECIALLY you. These year, i met lots of frens, 38B & Weng Honn. These are enough for me. And I never think before we can go gym together, sauna together, and lots of our 'di yi chi'. Hehe. And I love the surprised party that u had prepared for me!!!! Like I say, until I die that day, I also won't forget u!!!! I also wont forget u and ur families, they are just super duper nice to me!!! I love to be with u guys!!!! Make me feel very comfortable!!!! Another is 38B, at first, i felt super duper boring when go out with them, because every time talk about rainie. I also dunno her, but now i had changed. I will go to choose rainie song when i got to sing k!!!! That' so impossible. This is all influenced by u!!!! Do u feel proud??Ehehe. Another thing is Weng Honn, I never think that we can celebrate christmas, watch movie and do lots of things together. That time i was fall in love with him, but he never like me at all. And until the moment i want to forget him, then he star to ask me go eat, watch movie and lots of things!!!!! I always hope that I can find a bf that i love him and he love me. I really hope that I can find this kind of boy and i also hope u and ur sister can find. I hope time can move slowly, because when i go work that time will take around 5 months. And i cant go gym often with u anymore, somemore u got big test. Then finish test, i will start my college life. And u will go singapore. I will feel freaking hurt and sad, because my best fren come sis will leave to other place. I seriously cannot take it!!! I will miss u like crazy. Lastly I hope that our frenship will last until the day i die. I really dun want we just good at this moment only. U are the best fren that i ever noe!!!! I will give up everything but i will not forget u and also give up u!!!And i want add one more thing is this year i can see KATE!!!! That was just so great!!! Thank for accompany me, appreciate it!!!! I will getting her signature soon!!!! Wakakakaka!!! Excited. I realized me and u have same personality, too 'hao xin'!!!! Is a good thing actually, keep it ya!!!! Thanks for so care and worried about me!!!! I will protect myself de!!!! Hehe. I am soooooooo luckilyto have u!!!! Thank You So Much Sis!!!! Love ya!!!!!

Special To Soon Len

Hey hey hey, a very super duper big thank you to u!!!!! I seriously love the surprise that you gave me!!!! I am sure that i had the best surprise party in this 2010 year!!!! Life was being so great. Especially when u asked teacher to come and celebrate with me. Tell u honestly, that time i was so freaking happy and wanted to cry. I felt very touch. This was a a very successful surprise.

Another big thank you for ur hand made birthday present!!!! Its was the best present!!!! Its was so creative and nice. I super duper love it. thank u for always hang out with me!!! U are a kind person, honesty, it is really hard to find this kind of fren and also sis!!!!!!!

The third thank you for treating me and teacher tan for the meal, this is just so super awesome, i was very full that time, but still enjoyed to the max!!! what a memorable day.

The forth thank you to all ur family members, which is ur dad, mom, soon hwa and u for the ipod shuffle. I really like to be with u and ur family. They are just so nice and friendly. I will remember u guys until the day i die!!!!

Lastly thank you for all the things u had done!!! U are just so AWESOME!!! Love u!!! U help me make my dream comes true!!! Thank you so much for the book mark, star star and everthing

tat u had done for me. 'XIN KU NI LE'!!!!

SpecialThank You To Dai Kar Jie & Sook Sook!!!

Hey, lovely dai kar jie and sook sook, thanks you very much for giving me a surprise party!!!! Sook sook, I am so happy that u go all the way to 1 utama just buy the sticky for my present, this make me feel really touch!!! Thank you dai kai jie for the Watch, cakes, everything that you gave me on yesterday. Actually i do not noe you guys will help me celebrate my birthday!!!! Anyway thank you so much to u guys!!!! U all give me a wonderful and memorable day!!!! Love U TWO!!!!! I love all the present!!!!

Nervous!!!!

Today was my first time drive the car after getting the license. Haha, of course I am afraid and nervous, and my mom keep asked to changed the 'D' to 'N' when stop at the trafil light area. My brother kept ask me to step the pedal more. My dad kept helped me turn the steering. My little sister will claped the hand after i reached a place, and this give me encourage to me. My little brother say nothing, and my grandma kept say me 'pandai'.Haha, will always remember the day -23/04/10. The day that all my familes members can share the first time driving moment with me. Gtg, have to study now, having study skill exam tomorrow. Bye.

Driving License.

Just now I called my mom and remind her to help me get my driving license!!!! And my mom said help me take my driving license!!! yes yes yes, i can drive ad!!!!Haha!!!!! Now when i think back that time i was having driving test, and i became so nervous and worried about it. And now its overed. Yes Yes Yes!!!! CAnt wait for my 6H's reunion and 5 Raya's Reunion!!!! I miss them so badly!!!! My Heng Dai & My Ji Mui!!!! I miss Teacher Tan!!!!!!